Wednesday, November 14, 2007 ♥
these 2 days i have been trying very hard... ppl have been asking if i am ok.. well i sound ok i look ok .. what else.. but whenever i look at the pic of our past, i jus cant control... whenever i am bored u comes into my mind. i have been trying to find tings to do to cover all these up... maybe its jus me avoiding.. trying nt to face the truth... ppl have been consoling me.. telling me things.. but i refuse to hear any of those.. cuz whats left s our happ memories.. and i WILL NT LET ANY OF THESE MEMORIES BE TARNISHED... i treasure those memories within me..i hope u are living well.. maybe to u i am a fool... but yea.. this is jus me.. i wonders do u still come here? maybe nt... but well.. its still a place for me to type out my emotions...
so much more than a memory; 8:39 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007 ♥
haix.. its been a fun and happy 4 mths + 5 days i thank you for the chance and am sorry that it din work out. now my whole life is filled with you. and i dunno where to start to slowly remove. its so hard.. i simply miss you still but i know what u have chose will be the best for u.no matter whats your reply to my mail, i will still remember you. it was a memorable times i spent with you. my regret is that the dress i bought for u and i din have the chance to see you wear it for me. well maybe its fated.. haix and ur new hairdo also...
all my hardwork and planning has all went down to waste for 25 dec and 27 dec. i feel so unjust. maybe you werent yet ready for me / maybe i was too rush.. i guess i will nv know. thanks for everything you done for me. i din know things will turn out this way. all i wan now is that u are happy and that u will find some1 better.. all those memories we have will be kept in a corner of my heart. the wonderful fireworks we saw together. the times we tease each other and have so much fun. well i am still holding on to that very last hope..
for i dun wish for things to be ended in such a manner.. i still love you lots... but i know certain things cant be forced and that it always take 2 hands to clap.
awaiting your reply
so much more than a memory; 11:23 AM
Sunday, November 11, 2007 ♥
hmmm been a long time since i last blog.. seriously have no time... am working everyday to earn that extra cash.. haix.. talk time for the past week is less then even 2 hours... haix... either is u tired or i am tired.. its really tiring.. i need some encouragement... seriously... sleeping only 7 hrs on week days and 5-7 hours on week ends... haix...i am very tired...
wonder will one day i jus drop dead b cuz of fatigue.... i am so in need of ur company.. i wan u by my side every moment... the need for some1 has never been so strong before... i am already throwing whatever i have into this already w/o thinking what the result might be....
cant cont anymore.. feel like i am drifting liaoz.. have the feeling of fainting anytime... haix... maybe it will be best for me to sleep 1 whole week...
dear... dun leave me.. dun ignore me..
so much more than a memory; 1:44 AM